Sunday, February 27, 2011

Shocked.

Assalaamu'alaikum..

2 things to be stated. One good and another, the contrary. First up, the good news.

Alhamdulillah, I was selected to represent the school in the upcoming 'Peraduan cakap petah' at Madrasah Al-Ma'arif Al-Islamiah. Indeed i was speechless upon hearing my name being announced. I don't know if i could really do it. This is my first time. Representing the school means a lot, it is a big responsibility. I am holding the school's name. I shouldn't take this lightly. I have to prepare myself. Everything's gonna be fine, InsyaAllah. Guide me friends. Do make supplications for me.

That's the pleasant piece. Now, the opposite.

H1 Mathematics. I don't know, for some reason, i'm thinking of dropping from that very subject. On Friday, we were given the first test. It's a mere test, and will not be concluded in the result slip. However, I did badly. Though the results aren't out yet, I know, for sure, I'll be getting a single digit number or even, a Zero. This is because my mind were not there. I don't know, for some reason, my mind just deserted me at that moment. I was shocked myself. I could do the worksheets given and all, but just that, just that day.. I couldn't do it.

Just imagine, I was forming a new equation from equation (1), yet upon substituting, i substituted it into equation (1) back. !@##$%^&*)( How I wish i could re-take that test back. I don't mind if the questions were altered. I don't mind getting a bad result if i really don't know how to do it. At least i could still ask for help, but this time around, i clearly know the 'concept' and all. Just that, maybe i was putting too much thought on the Cakap Petah competition.

Zulzawaid said it was normal to fail during the first test, or even for the upcoming tests. The word is 'Careless' and not 'don't-know-how-to-do-it'. Not just him, but many others too advised me to rethink about dropping the subject. It's kinda vital. Thank you all. I'll just treat this a lesson not to be repeated.

With that,
Assalaamu'alaikum.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Secebis coretan.

Assalaamu'alaikum.

Terus terang kukatakan sekarang, aku sudah tawar hati untuk mengharapkan walau secebis harapan untuk memasuki sebarang kelab, menjawat 'jawatan' mahupun untuk memasuki peraduan Bahas 4PM atau sebarang peraduan. Entah mengapa, aku benar-benar merasa bahawa aku tidak mampu untuk memikul tanggungjawab-tanggungjawab demikian. Aku tidak layak. Aku memang adik Jafni. Benar. Namun aku tidak sepandai, secergas dan serajin beliau. Aku tahu dia pernah menjawat jawatan sebagai President bagi Nadi Lughah jika tidak silap. Namun inginku tekankan di sini, tahap Bahasa Arab beliau jauh lebih tinggi daripada aku. Kelebihan aku mungkin.. Allahu A'lam, Allah sahaja yang tahu.

Setarek lahir, aku dianugerahkan 4 abang. Saat usiaku menjejak 9 tahun, aku mula melihat satu persatu abang-abangku mendapat takhta tika di sekolah. Hal ini berlarutan hatta saat mereka melangkah ke alam Polytechnic, NAFA mahupun Madrasah Wak Tanjong Al-Islamiah. Takhta yang kumaksudkan berupa Head Student Leader(Prefect), Student Leader Exco, Student Leader, President, Top 10 STE, Top 10 O level, No.1 in standard from Pri 1 to 6, Highest in Higher Maths dan sebagainya.

Dalam bidang sukan pula, usah disangsi. Apakan tidak, lihat saja almari di ruang tamuku. Penuh dengan trofi serta pingat. Sebut sahaja, bola sepak, takraw, badminton, athletics ? Hampir kesemuanya berjaya dirangkul abang-abangku, tidak kisahlah tempat ke-berapa, yang penting ia pasti sudah dapat membanggakan kedua-dua ibu dan bapaku.

Bohong kalau kukatakan aku tidak peduli atau cemburu akan itu semua. Namun apakan daya, aku hanya seorang insan yang kerdil. Jika hendak dibandingkan antara aku dengan mereka, ibarat langit dan bumi.

Namun aku tahu, setiap insan dilahirkan mempunyai kelebihan. Sedangkan nama yang diberikan padaku iaitu Nufail mempunyai makna-makna yang indah, Hadiah, Pemberian serta Kelebihan.

Selepas satu rintangan, ditambah lagi dengan satu dugaan. Kadang-kadang aku terfikir juga, mengapa aku memilih MWTI daripada Polytechnic? Aku tidak nafi mereka di MWTI sungguh peramah. Yang menjadi masalah adalah subjek-subjeknya. Bayangkan, aku baru mahu membiasa-biasakankan diri dengan subjek-subjeknya, namun aku telah ditampar dengan keputusan yang amat mengejutkan untuk tugasan membuat prosa (daripada puisi) bagi pelajaran Sastera. Aku mendapat 6/10.

Namun tidak mengapa, aku akan cuba melihatnya dari sudut yang positif. Seperti yang biasa kita dengar, " Lebih baik mendapat keputusan yang tidak membanggakan sekarang daripada nanti. "

Sekian daripadaku, Nufail.
Wassalaamu'alaikum.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

The dejection period.

Assalaamu'alaikum..

I don't know, for some reason, i feel guilty. Am I being too liberal in my speaking? O Allah, forgive this servant of yours.

Sometimes when we say something, people just can't get the point. We're not boasting, neither do we brag. Na'uuzhubillahi min zhaalik. We're merely sharing.

When I was in my previous school, I could acutely notice that there are many who thinks that I am nothing except a braggart. They didn't say anything, but I knew it, from their reactions and all. Indeed it's true, "Everyone can find fault, few can do better."

Some even went to the extent of thinking I'm snobbish, arrogant. Am I really that bad? As far as I'm concerned, I have never look down on anybody, for unless I'm helping him up.

Through this writing, I sincerely would like to apologise to anybody I've known, for 11 years, 10 years, or even a week. If I really had done something wrong, please see me, tell me. At the very least, send me an email or a message. I will try my best to change for the better, InsyaAllah. I may not straight away will change, but instead, I'll try. In fact, till now, I'm still trying my best to not speak or talk too much. Well, it's not easy to be a new person. Do make supplications for me. Thank you.

With that,
Assalaamu'alaikum.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Alhamdulillah.

Assalaamu'alaikum..

Alhamdulillah kuucapkan. Syukurku dihadapkan pada Yang Esa. Aku tidak sangka pelajar-pelajar di Madrasah Wak Tanjong Al-Islamiah(MWTI) begitu peramah. Buat masa ini, kami menggunakan Lecture Theatre(LT) sebagai kelas kami.

Kelmarin kumengambil ujian Matematik, semalam pula, ujian bagi Economics. Sekarang, hanya keputusan mampu menentukan adakah aku layak atau sebaliknya untuk mengambil Matematik H1 dan Economics H2, selain berdo'a.

Aku terkejut bila pelajar-pelajar dari Menengah menegurku. Seperti biasa, aku agak pemalu dan hanya mampu bersenyum. Sebahagian daripada mereka juga turut meng'add' aku dalam senarai kawan mereka di laman sosial Facebook.

Kini, sambil menunggu keputusan kelayakan, aku punyai satu kerja rumah iaitu untuk subjek General Paper(GP).

Aku harap aku dapat menghafal surah Sod dalam masa terdekat. Begitu juga bagi buku-buku Sastera iaitu, Restu dan Bacalah dalam Bahasamu A dan B. Bagi buku Restu, tidak dinafikan pada mulanya ia benar-benar kelihatan janggal serta payah untuk aku memahami isi kandungannya, memandangkan banyak perkataan yang digarisi aku. Namun, semakin banyak mukasurat kumembelek, semakin mudah bagiku untuk memahami isinya. Alhamdulillah.

Bagi dua buku Sastera yang lain, Bacalah dalam Bahasamu A&B, perkataan yang digunakan agak mudah berbanding Restu namun ayat yang digunakan mungkin agak mengelirukan. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku.

Terus terang kukatakan aku tidak punya sebarang pengalaman serius akan Bahas. Aku hanya sukakannya dan ingin sekali mencubanya selain mendengar tunjuk ajar-tunjuk ajar daripada mereka yang berpengalaman. Ingin sekali kumelangkah ke Bahas 4PM. Ya Allah, kabulkanlah do'aku.

Semalam, pelajar-pelajar dari Pra-U2 mengadakan semacam Orientation bagi kami pelajar-pelajar Pra-U1. Sebelum memulakan sesi Ta'aruf antara kami kedua-dua pelajar Pra-U (1&2), mereka telah menyediakan dua permainan. Yang pertama adalah TrustFall, dan kedua adalah semacam Charade.

Bagi Charade, ia agak lucu melihat gelagat-gelagat mereka. Hanya orang pertama yang diberitahu akan binatang tertentu. Orang itu haruslah melakonkan gayanya mengikut binatang yang diberitahunya kepada kawan di hadapannya. Hal ini disambung hingga ke orang yang 'terakhir' dan yang terakhir itu haruslah meneka binatang apa yang selama itu digayakan.

TrustFall. TERUS TERANG kukatakan aku takut pada ketinggian. Walau bagaimana percayanya aku pada mereka yang di bawah, aku tetap 'tidak percaya'. Hahaha. Bagi yang masih keliru akan apa sebenarnya TrustFall ini, lihat pada gambar yang kulampirkan.

Haa ! Bagaimana? Seram bukan?! Pada mulanya aku fikir hanya aku seorang yang menggigil ketakutan, rupa-rupanya, ramai pun begitu juga ! Salah satu daripada mereka, AIDIL ! hahaha...

Sungguh, ia adalah satu pengalaman. Saat ini, aku tidak terlalu mengharapkan apa-apa jawatan seperti Prefect dan President mahupun sebagai pembantu bagi kedua-dua jawatan besar itu. Aku hanya mampu bersyukur. Kalau di Irsyad dulu, aku memang, secara terus terang ingin menjadi seorang prefect namun apakan daya, aku tidak punya sifat kepimpinan. Justeru di sini, MWTI, aku tidak mahu terlalu mengharap-harapkan akan mempunyai jawatan-jawatan yang secara peribadi kurasakan tidak layak atau tidak mungkin bagiku untuk menyandangnya. Dapat diterima memasuki MWTI sudah cukup bagiku, memandangkan ini merupakan seakan 'peluang kedua' bagiku untuk menyambungkan pelajaran.

Aku harap sifat kepimpinanku akan dapat diasah. InsyaAllah

Dari itu,
Assalaamu'alaikum.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

1st time experience at MWTI

Assalaamu'alaikum.

I was suprised. Shocked indeed, envious though, at the fact thay they were(are) so friendly and very welcoming. Although at first i was stupefied upon seeing the 'assemble' period, i was soon amazed by their friendly nature.

P.S.: we cannot bring our phones to the school.. but.. nah, i'll get used to it. InsyaAllah.

First up was the introduction of the school anthem(or song), pledge, the supplications and a brief or rough picture of the subjects each stream's gonna take.

We were then brought to the Lecture Theatre (or what they called LT). This is where the Ta'aruf sessions were being held. It was cold, very cold in fact. haha..

It was just an introduction, yet it lasted for more than an hour, if i'm not mistaken. It was for the General Paper, GP. Wow.. i've to really read a lot of newspapers' articles. I cannot just depend on the teacher herself. I've to also take note of people's quotations, with regards to the experts and/or certain reliable organisations. Apart from all that, i've to also jot down, or at least know the statistics of a certain issue. Seriously, what a blast. I've got to get on my tracks back and be independent ! InsyaAllah.

Then it was the Syariah and Usuluddin. Syariah and Usuluddin, I've got to really get used to reading.. seriously. Ustazah Rozanna said it may look as if it's hard and difficult, but if you really wanna excel, you cannot do a last minute study.  You've got to start reading and revising now, it will be smooth and you shall not find any difficulties in the 2nd year insyaAllah.

As for the Arabic Language, i seriously seemed to get lost. I cannot seemed to get even the simple word correct, in the sense where i cannot remember even the simple words, such as 'Maqobir' (graves). Just hope i could retrieve back my love and prowess for this Arabic Language.

Now, Malay Literature ( Sastera). Well you know what, many of the pre-U1 students, i mean, from Wak Tanjong itself, have already started with Sastera in their O levels. I was like, " Can i still take part in the Bahas thingy? "

During our Ta'aruf session with the Pre-U2 Students, we were introduced to the Heads. I am sorry but i can only remember the guys..hee..:D

Head Prefect: 'Adi Rusyaidi
Class Chairperson: Khairul Anwar

Clubs (if i'm not mistaken):-
Head *Nadi Lughah: 'Adi Rusyaidi
Head *Nadi Furqan: Is it 'Isa?
Head *SEA: Luqman
Head *Perbayu: Taufiq
Head *Media Club: Haziq 
* Nadi Lughah: Aspires to improve the grasp of the Arabic language leading to a better understanding of the Holy Quran.

* Nadi Furqan: Encourages the appreciation of the Holy Quran where students will be trained in Tajweed (correct pronunciation during recitation) and Tarannum (the different rhythms of Quranic recitation).

* Society of English Appreciation (SEA): Hopes to cultivate a deeper appreciation of the English language and literature. 

* Persatuan Bahasa Melayu (PERBAYU): Aims to promote the interest in Malay culture and tradition. 

* The Media Club: Promotes the spirit of journalism and provides the platform for students to display their writing skills. 

That's basically all from me. Till then,
Assalaamu'alaikum.
ps.: Thank you MWTI for not making me feel awkward in the school. O Allah, ease my undertakings.